I have encountered yet another person who has experienced the hypocrisy of the "Christian" church. And it breaks my heart. I, myself, claim to be a Christian and am appalled by some of the actions of some of my brothers and sisters, and myself included. On behalf of all of us, I deeply apologize.

Two songs are on my mind tonight.

This one kind of describes my events for the night. Once again, I encourage a listen, it might just mean something to you.

born and raised to be an alcoholic
were you too old or young to stop it?
Christians in Black

-Christians in Black, Rogue Wave

and another, that is kind of my anthem for the moment. I feel it reflects my current state of mind; unsure of myself, yet confident for the future and blessed by those around me.

So you say I'm better off here,
as dry as the shoreline
in an ocean of fear
So you say that I can't be alive until there is nothing
when we're meeting eyes again...

Day by day I wander these halls,
and you're casting a shadow onto every wall
But all the way you ring in my ear
from the moment i knew you were leaving me here

This give and take this waiting on time
It's this twisted up memory that i can't unwind
These fragile words that come from my mouth
I'm crumbling and crowded, but i've figured you out

The shoreline calles the sea
for simple words and company
but words go on and on
till they collide and all is gone

I dive into the deep
into the sea inside of me
To find another song

to find a place where i belong


and i do feel like i belong. :)

That's all for today. It's not much, but it's what's on my mind.

Good Night.