I first heard the term La Belle Indifference in my Psychiatric Nursing Class and it struck a chord in me (and not just because it sounds like the name of a band I would listen to).
- La Belle Indifference: literally, "The Beautiful Indifference"; a feature of conversion disorders involving an odd lack of concern about one's loss of funcitoning in some area of one's body.
It is often associated with conversion hysteria ( psychopathological condition characterized by the presence of bodily symptoms having no discernible physical cause but for which there is evidence of psychological conflict.)
No, I am not experiencing any inexplicable physical symptoms; however, i do feel that i am in fact harboring a great deal of indifference. I am a Christian, and and more than thankful and honored to be called a Child of God. But i must say that my growth in Christ and ahs a human has become stagnant, and quite frankly, it's starting to stink.
While I am aware of my stagnance, i am remarkably (or unremarkably) indifferent about it. Strange, (very strange, actually) because i am by nature an emotional and expressive person. It is inherent to the very fiber of my being to care - about everything. So my apparent lack of concern for this area of my life has me, well....concerned. Quite the conundrum, huh? Have I lost you yet? Because I lost me way back there!
This verse comes to mind:
"for the light makes everything visible. This is why it is said, 'Awake, o sleeper, rise up from the dead, and Christ will give you light.'" - Ephesians 5:14
Dear God, help me to move towards you. Help me to rise from the swamp of stagnant waters and move into a place of growth. May the truth be made known about your character through me. Amen.
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